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Tifanie

Thanks so much, Tifanie, for the kind feedback. Thanks also for the honest question. Nothing seems to stir our most primal emotions like the idea of our kids in danger. I remember losing one of our kids a couple of years ago at Disneyworld. She's come back since then (just kidding). But seriously, the 15 minutes or so I couldn't locate her was truly terrifying. As strongly calm and ScreamFree as I was trying to be, I could feel so many internal, physiological reactions swelling together. My voice was the telltale sign of my panic, getting louder, shakier, and alarmed by the moment. All I wanted was to find her, embrace her, and then slap on one of those toddler leashes so she would never leave my sight again!

But you don't have to go to Orlando to experience the panic. It sounds like you've been feeling it quite a bit lately, just in and around your home. Here are my initial thoughts. Your three-year-old is asking, in his own immature way, for you to let him know his place. In terms of structuring our homes, our kids need (and actually want) us to let them know their space and their place. Their space is the area around themselves and their lives over which they have complete say. This area is obviously very limited when our children our young, and ever expanding as they get older. It is our kids' job, as they grow, to keep pushing the envelope in order to claim as much space as possible. This is not diabolical and greedy, but a very necessary part of growing up, especially considering that their entire lives are pointing toward a day when their whole lives will actually be up to them. If we parents see our job as preparing them for that day, then it is our job to continually give them their space, allowing them the freedom and responsibility that comes with making their own decisions.

Our kids also, however, need to know their place. This is where their space ends. This is where their decision-making freedom stops. Believe it or not, our kids are actually asking us to provide these boundaries. This is because structure is actually comforting. Having some decisions not up to us is actually freeing. Having parents set up and maintain our place, this outline of our space, makes them trustworthy. And kids crave it, even when they're bumping up against it. Even when they're testing it.

I often ask parents in my seminars whether they feel "tested" by their kids. Everyone raises their hands. That's because whenever we feel tested by our kids, we are actually being tested by our kids! They are testing us, in their immature ways, to see if we can be trusted, to see if we can be the true grownups our kids so desperately need. And when we can respond with calm resolve, when we refuse to freak out or flake out when our kid is in danger, then we pass the test.

Your son is testing you, Tifanie, and he wants you to pass. You know he is not some "fearless" kid without any personal concern for safety, because you've seen him scared to go down the back stairs by himself. This is not about his developing personality, this is about a particular test between him and you. He is pushing the garage door button because he knows it is a way to push your buttons.

But it doesn't have to. By your own report, you know of some structural "place" pieces you can do better (door chimes, latches). You also know that you are tempted to let your dynamic with your 5-year-old ("afraid to do anything") shape how your interact with your 3-year-old. It seems like some of the space/place issues are reversed here, and often that means each child knows the same thing: mom's anxiety is the real scary thing here. The older kid (as if often the case) doesn't test that by avoiding danger at all costs. The younger kid goes all out to test mom to see if maybe she will become aware of the problem. Now no one is conscious of these processes, but thankfully, the way out of this dynamic is the same: focus on you.

The calling here is not to focus on strengthening your 5-year-old, nor on restricting your 3-year-old. The calling here is for you to "rise above the fray" and make remaining calm and resolute your number one priority. Your main priority is not to make sure your children never get hurt, it is to make sure that no matter what, you are in control of yourself. If that means spending more time securing the latches than playing with your kids, then you do it because you know that's what you need to do in order to calm your anxiety. If that means establishing clear, new consequences for one child if he gets out and the other if he won't go play outside, then do it--not so much for them, but in order for you to feel more calmly confident about having a structure in place.

Finally, that means examining your own sense of space and place. So often, moms feel the burden of responsibility for their young children so heavily that they secretly feel trapped in their "place"--at home watching their kids. With all the demands on their time, their bodies, their wits...they feel little regard for their own space, from others or from themselves. I don't know if this is the case with you, Tifanie, but I'm guessing it is. Doing whatever you can do to develop yourself as a calm, connected, and balanced woman is the best thing you can do for your children.

Or you can always try the leash.

Take care,

Hal

Hal,

Thank you so much for the response! You've got me completely figured out and the information you have given me will definitely help when I remember to implement it, which I pray I will. Thanks again.

Tifanie